Undecided

so, i've been back home for almost two months now.  i've been out with my sister a few times, strolled around solo a few times and i must say, the only eye~candy to be seen are when there are cruise ships.  seriously.  even if i was considerin the whole datin thing, how in the world am i supposed to be inspired if there aren't any prospects?  i used to laugh at my sister all the time when she would lament this to me.  but i don't think i really believed her.  i thought she was just exaggeratin it.  now i see for myself.

*sigh*

so, while the thought of even bein friendlier has crossed my mind, i must admit i'm havin second thoughts.  see the problem with bein back home and wantin to date is, well, there are quite a few problems with this.  first, the pickings are uber~slim (read married).  second, the guys are uber~young. third, the ones that aren't too young are loaded with issues (read kids, baby mamas, girlfriends, wives . . .). and finally, if they aren't a combination of the above mentioned, then it's someone you went to school with who acts like they are still in school and thinks you don't know anythin about the things i just said. 

*shakin my head*

now don't get me wrong; it was by no means any easier for me livin in the states.  but by bein back at home, i have cut my chances at meetin someone i'd even consider by more than half.  livin in such a small geographical location leaves much to be desired when one is on the lookout.  and some of us refuse  to settle or share.  and that's pretty much what your options are here.

so what's a girl to do . . .

One of those Days

have you ever woken up and before you even get out of the bed, you just knew that the day is gonna suck?  well, today kinda seemed like it would be like that, but i decided i didn't want that kinda day.  yesterday was okay; i actually went to work and spent the rest of the afternoon with my mom and sister.  we had lunch and watched a marathon of the "Ghost Whisperer".  marathons are exhaustin, even if it is a show you like to watch.  by the time we got home, i was tired and just felt kind of bummed out.  not too sure why the melancholy, but it was there and it went to bed with me.  so when i got up today, i felt like i didn't want to get out of bed.  i just wanted to lay there and wallow. i have no idea where the pity party came from.  no clue as to why i suddenly felt all 'woe is me'.  so i closed my eyes, took some deep breaths and said ' let's try this again, shall we?'

*breathe in, breathe out*

so after goin to church, i'm here and although i can still feel the sourness lingerin, i'm not gonna let it ruin the rest of my lovely day.  it's gorgeous here; the sun is shinin, the waters are azure blue and life is good, even when you don't feel like it is . . .